Another word or two of which I am fond . . .

Inchoate : How I feel tip-toeing or more often stumbling around the bloggosphere. Just trimmed the list of blogs I follow and changing some I've been following from 'anonymous' to 'public'. I notice that like a living organism like minded blogs and followers tend to cluster . . . then there are the two per-centers who refused to be catalogued, pigeon-holed, categorized, typed or ordered into any kind of taxonomy . . .

Memory - stub

"The boy stood on the burning deck . . . " but I was standing on a chair and it wasn't burning; I was on fire with shame and embarrassment. Was this a punishment of some kind or was the class set an assignment to each tell a story to the class? I can't remember. What I can remember is that prickling sensation of panic rising up my legs to my reddening face as I squirmed thinking desparately of what to say.

Australia was a fascination for us then what with the £10 assisted passage for emigrés to that land, The Flying Doctor series on the wireless and learning about the peculiar animals of the outback, including the wallaby, duck billed platypuss and wombat. What a lovely word: wombat; I wandered what the animal looked like. I'd listened to a tale about a wombat on the wireless a few days before. What little television I saw was at friends' houses; I knew none of my contemporaries listened to the wireless so I retold the tale of the wombat escaping a bush fire . . . knowing it would be fresh for them. And thereby I esaped burning embarrassment.

Unfortunate turn of phrase

I could hardly keep a straight face when the headmaster confided sotto voce, "The boys enjoy master baiting," as we entered the classroom on my first day; but unfortunately not sotto voce enough. "Stop that snickering boys!"

Maps - a stub

I get lost wondering around this jungle called the internet. Where are the maps? Ordnance Survey in Southampton was where I used to turn or I should say the old ¼ and 1 inch maps that dad and I would pore over after having been on a bike ride long before the days of personal computers, never mind lap-tops. Why after not before the bike ride? I wonder. I still like poring over maps of places familiar and unfamiliar. All the bike rides. Just looking at maps. Drawing imaginary maps. Lost in the web with no map. And why try to map my life? Where have I been? How do I get there again? Ctrl+h only shows me where I've been! Walking along a crowded virtual street greeting strangers and popping into virtual shops. How did they do that? That blog is too noisy. What language is that?

From the bookshelves 9

I was made aware of the work of Lewis Grassic Gibbon (James Leslie Mitchell) through a wonderful television adaptation of Sunset Song (Sorry, there's not much information on IMDb). A Penguin edition of the book is available on Amazon. This copy of A Scots Quair was published by Schocken in 1977 with a foreword by Ivor Brown. Canongate published a new edition of the trilogy last year. A few years ago Roger Lyall made this account of the past rural life in the Mearns. Mitchell managed to write sixteen books in a seven year period of a life that lasted just thirty-five years. The writing flows wonderfully with rhythms of Scottish speech. The hardness of life on the land in that part of the world at that time, the turn of the twentieth century to the Great War and after, is unflinchingly described through the life and thoughts of Chris Guthrie, Chae Strachan, Rob of the Mill and Chris's love, Ewan.

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I'm not sure when I was first aware of Guillaume Apollinaire. Most probably in an anthology of poetry. These are quirky stories the most memorable for me being the tale of a rogue (or overly pius?) priest who consecrates all the bread in a bakery early in the morning and then thinks of the consequences for un-shriven souls. That's how I remember it after nearly forty years anyway. The Sacrilege. This book I took with me to read on breaks at the brick-works; there are still smudges of clay on the cover and the spine is cocked. The frontispiece illustrates a retelling of the story of Salomé. First published in 1910 L'Hérésiarque et Cie was a runner-up to Colette's La Vagabonde for the Prix Goncourt.

From the bookshelves 7

    Before On The Road there was The Town and the City. When I was younger I didn't want to read just the well known writings of authors and went on a quest to find everything published by a particular writer. Consequently I had a D.H. Lawrence phase not for the infamy of Lady Chatterly's Lover but because Sons and Lovers was one of the books set when I did 'O' level GCE. William Golding's The Spire, The Inheritors, Pincher Martin and the travel writing followed Lord of the Flies. I still aver Steinbeck's best is East of Eden although I enjoyed Tortilla Flat and Cannery Row. I no longer own copies of many of the books I read through the attrition of lending, moving and misplacing, giving away and selling.


    Truman Capote said of Kerouac's work,"That's not writing; it's typing" But Visions of Gerard makes a lie of that view. The book mark from Chatterton's of Hollywood and the date I've written inside the cover confirm I was living in Hollywood at the time I read this book, so it may have accompanied me on Will Roger's State Beach at the end of Sunset Blvd.

     It is easier to list the Kerouac I have not read: The Scripture of the Golden Eternity; Book of Dreams; Visions of Cody and Mexico City Blues. I also have a copy of the selected letters 1940-1956 which is on a growing to be read (or finished) pile.

Personal stuff

Dreamed. Went to the doc this morning. Stopped procrastinating for today only? Caught up on reading blogs. Practiced mandolin, guitar and dulcimer. Listened to radio programmes. Walked. Watched a couple of episodes of Foyle's War. All the cats are safely in for the night. Oh, I haven't introduced all the cats. Later. Now I'm ready for a nigh-cap and a few more chapters of The Hummingbird's Daughter . . . what can I say? I'm a slow reader.

Facsimile of a facsimile

"ONLY 425 copies of the Kelmscott Chaucer were printed (not 325, as originally announced), so it is not surprising that a number of facsimiles have been produced to satisfy demand for this legendary work. Head and shoulders above the rest is the Basilisk Press edition of 1975. Printed at the John Roberts Press by letterpress from line blocks, on paper commissioned as a perfect match to the original, it is an astonishing creation, and even experts have difficulty distinguishing one from another.
It is thanks to the kindness of Mr. Bernard Roberts, proprietor of the John Roberts Press at that time, that the Folio Society facsimile has come into being. He loaned his own copy to be disbound and photographed for the printing of this edition."

Bound by Smith Settle of Otley, Yorkshire in full goatskin and blocked in gold from an original design by T. J. Cobden-Sanderson. This is number 914 of 1,000 printed for sale.

Words, words, words

I dipped into Poets of Our Time this morning and read John Betjeman's London. Here is the last fourteen lines:

'Twas not, I think, a conscious search for God
That brought me to these dim forgotten fanes.
Largely it was a longing for the past,
With a slight sense of something unfulfilled;
And yet another feeling drew me there,
A sense of guilt increasing with the years -
'When I am dead you will be sorry, John' -
Here I could pray my mother would not die.
Thus were my London Sundays incomplete
If unaccompanied by Evening Prayer.
How trivial used to seem the Underground,
How worldly looked the over-lighted west,
How different and smug and wise I felt
When from the east I made my journey home

I consulted the Chambers English Dictionary see what it said about "fane". Dad had a copy of Chambers 20thCentury Dictionary he dipped into when completing cryptic crossword puzzles. He said it contained a good selection of unusual words more often found in larger dictionaries. I've since obtained a copy of the compact OED and in the past had a copy of the American Heritage dictionary. I've never had the inclination to buy a Merriam-Webster . . .

Words, Words, Words I thought was the title of Jean Paul Sartre's autobiography but a quick search disabused me of that notion. It is Les Mots (Words).

Some words I've had to look up in the past include desuetude, crapulous, pranked, caducity, esurient, catamite . . .
And some of my favourite words - mellifluous, horizon, crepuscular, amanuensis (I wish I had one of those)

The dictionary is always close by. I need to use it more often. Fane? a temple. Oh I miss John Ciardi.

From the bookshelves 5

I used to skip poetry in books I was reading. At primary school we were introduced to poetry of Walter de la Mare and Robert Louis Stevenson and encouraged to write a verse or two; of course it had to rhyme and have a nice tum-de-dum rhythm. Then came 'O' level and CSE English which included a good smattering of the likes of Spender, Auden, Blackburn, Hughes, R S Thomas; and whole books of nothing but poetry. I like reading poetry now, influenced by all the Poetry in a Pub readings in the sixties; but I don't read enough now and, bad student that I am, never learned much by heart. I shall have to use my dad's tactic to stave of dementia; he learned all of the Rubaiyat (Fitzgerald's first translation) of Omar Khayyam . . . and this was a man who, when playing Iago, had the director in despair because he hadn't learned his lines soon enough for her liking. I've had the same trouble. After school I found the Beat poets and Brian Pattern, Anselm Hollo, and Adrian Henri (the Beatles aren't the only product of Liverpool); Leonard Cohen was popular, too, especially after he started recording and playing at the Isle of Wight festival.

I did learn this old London rhyme hence the approximation of how a street urchin might say it. I had it by heart in about five minutes in my 'yoof'. It can be found in Verse and Worse, I think

We had a bleedin' sparrer
What lived up a bleedin spaht
One day the bleedn' rain came dahn
And washed the bleeder aht

And as he lay 'arf drahnded
Dahn in the bleedin' street
He begged that bleedin' rainstorm
To bathe 'is bleedin' feet

Then the bleedin' sun came aht
Dried up the bleedin' rain
And that bleedin' sparrer
Climbed up the bleedin' spaht again

Then a bleedin' sparrer-'awk
Spies 'im in 'is snuggery
Sharpens up 'is bleedin' claws
And pulls 'im aht by thuggery

Then a bleedin sportin' type
What had a bleedin' gun
Spies the bleedin' sparrer-'awk
And blasts 'is bleedin' fun

The moral of this story
Is plain to everyone
Them what's up the bleedin' spaht
Don't get no bleedin' fun.

And I love listening to Ian Macmillan's Roger McGough's voice on BBCRadio 4's Poetry Please . . .

[edit 24 Sept '09: I'm confused again. Ian's programme is The Verb on Radio 3]

From the bookshelves 4

Books as objects; objects to heft, smell, feel, taste? Books as the depositories of collected wisdom? How about reading books? Here I am treating them like objects. I have read them but I haven't said anything about them. Perhaps I need to read them again.

This is a selection edited and introduced by Julian Shuckburgh and published in 1986. An edition of the complete 72 Peverel Papers in chronological order was published in 2008 by John Owen Smith.

Little boy . . .

Why did I start writing a blog? Why such a title? To find out who I am by telling the world who I think I am? I can tell the world about the dreamy, shy little boy I think I was. I hated injustice. I thought the world could be fair. I knew injured wild animals had to be killed. I wondered why babies had to be born in a hospital. I thought hospitals were for dying. I thought men had breasts to be able feed babies in an emergency. I was scared of the dark. That was the inner me. I had permanently dirty knees. I would click and cluck my tongue. I would grind my teeth. I loved picking at scabs and my nose but I'm too polite to tell you my favourite cuss words. I was a scrapper so long as I chose the fight. I hated being teased (still do). I hated seeing weaker children being picked on. I chose the outsiders to be members of my patrol in Scouts. I was neither the first nor the last picked when sides were chosen for games and I sometimes did the picking. I'd scrump pears and apples, cherries and plums; when mum asked why I had cigarettes in my pocket I said,"For smoking". I joined in the boyish games to see who could pee the highest, spit the furthest. I loved the prettiest girl in the class and dreamed of carrying her away on a great white stallion. I know I was a wriggle britches because my trousers seats' were soon shiny and thin if not torn or worn through. I'd run my sleeve along dusty window sills, and jump in puddles. I'd walk miles alone. Telling stories was natural . . .

Jam Night ...

Bob, wash-tub bass; Jim, fiddle; Bob, guitar. "So, what'll we start with? May the circle be Unbroken . . . ? "

Charlie guitar, harmonica (and banjo) Springerville Blues

Pat on Banjo . . .

Jim on fiddle Whiskey Before Breakfast.

Play something and I'll take your picture. Thanks, Charlie. Just don't make it a video with sound. Tripping Up the Stairs

From the bookshelves 3

The poet Laurie Lee's most well know work is the autobiographical Cider With Rosie (The Edge of Day). The autobiographical theme is continued in As I Walked Out One Midsummer Morning. Nineteen year old Laurie leaves the Gloucestershire hamlet of Slad for London. He makes his way to Spain not long before the outbreak of civil war.

Laurie describes a post-war Spain in A Rose for Winter.

I Can't Stay Long is a collection of incidental writing the most poignant of which is an account of how the villagers are coping a year after the Aberfan disaster of 1966 when a mountain of slurry engulfed the village primary school school killing over a hundred children.

From the bookshelves 2

This is a copy of the California University Press reduction of the original Arion Press folio edition designed by Andrew Hoyem.

"The Arion edition was limited to 265 copies, of which 250 were for sale. the type is handset Gaudy Modern. The Leviathan Capitals use for the title and initial letters were designed by Charles Bigelow and Kris Holmes. The illustrations were drawn and engraved by Barry Moser. Members of the Arion Press who assisted in the production of the original edition were: Pauline Christensen, Margaret Green, Lester Lloyd, Abigail Potter, Gerald Reddan, and Glenn Todd. The printing commenced in March 1978 and was completed in May of 1979.
The original pages were photographed for reproduction in this edition by Charles R. Wood."

I have a copy of Boccaccio's Decameron also published by the University of California Press in 1982. The John Payne translation revised and annotated by Charles S. Singleton. Three volumes bound and slip-cased in buckram. Very handsome.

Mis-using words - delete

I can not keep up with the voice in my head telling me to write. So many things I have lost. Ah poor me. Oh, to relive the joy of a child greeting each day; eagerly anticipating all the adventures and discoveries possible in that brilliant time beginning at sunrise and ending lying restlessly in bed impatient for tomorrow's sunrise. What about now? Now the morning page beckons me to write until that moment when it stops being easy and trite, when I have cleared my head of the detritus of sleepy dreams and the kernel of an idea of something to write about begins to appear on the page . . . then I stop writing, I come to the edge and retreat as the quotidian impinges . . . feeding the cats, ablutions, breakfast . . .

So far this is an amorphous collection of incomplete thoughts. You got that right. There is a cheeky voice has to have his say. This used to happen when I'd type cryptic notes to myself on an old IBM Selectric many years ago. I have those pages somewhere. Definitely not for public consumption.

So, what is this about? Does it have to be about something?

Of bibliophages

Of the few interests noted in my profile most are to do with music beginning with the very general 'music making'.

When was I first aware of music? The nursery rhymes my mother sang as she rocked me to sleep in her arms? The music dad would play at the piano? My own humming?

I haven't listed reading but I do say my favourite book is the one I am reading at the moment. Now I will raid the book shelves for a sampling and a good place to start is Nicholas Basbanes's

A Gentle Madness Bibliophiles, Bibliomanes, and the Eternal Passion for Books.

Forty years on . . .

Not quite a class reunion. Show Low, AZ. Friday 14 August. Mike's a couple of years younger than I but we had drama, Richard III, Gilbert and Sullivan, Maria Marten or Murder in the Red Barn, Toad of Toad Hall; and teachers in common . . . Mr Ashton, Mr Southgate, Mr Hope, Mr Chadwick, Miss Tyler, Miss Piché, Mr French . . .

Stastistics nerd

Maybe it's the way it is spelt (or spelled) but there are only two of us listing 'bodhràn' as an interest. . . . . right that's enough nonsense for one evening.

Acting the pedantic twit . . .

Oh, I don't have to act do I?

The overuse of the prefix pre- caused me to think about other thoughtless phrases uttered in unguarded moments that are now finding their way into print and typed on the web without the benefit of sharp eyed copy editors.

Pre-plan: "I pre-plan a visit Alaska later this year".

Pre-register: "So, if I pre-register for the course now I won't have to come back and register later? Why don't I just register now and have done with it?".

Irregardless. Different than. I have to laugh when I catch myself saying un-thaw: "What? You want to freeze it? but it's already frozen".

I could care less: "Then care less until it hurts. Care less until you have no more care to give".

Friends reunited . . .

I met with an acquaintance yesterday whom I hadn't seen for forty years. We ate lunch and chatted about our common experiences at school. About the people we remembered; the plays and musicals; the pranks and punishments. We talked about our lives since leaving school and how we came to be living in the USA. I was the only person who had responded to the emails he'd sent to various classmates on Friends Reunited.

Thursday Kathy collected this beautiful urn which contains Zoë's ashes.

Kathy's parents are visiting for the week-end as we were to have visited them in New Mexico but the events of the week disrupted those plans.

'Nother Day

Cooled off and got some rain; so whenever there's wet weather the bookshop is a little busier. I am also happy when someone comes in looking for a book and I am able to find a copy of the book they want on the shelves; this happened today. Martin Cruz Smith's Gorky Park (1981).

Good night

Well that was a slow day. No one asked about books or authors. Clouded up but no rain; at least the weather is a little cooler.

So, am I the sum of my memories?

I'm going to read now . . .

Good Morning

The day always starts well with several pages of ramblings beginning with the realisation that today is designated the Glorious Twelfth by those who take joy in blasting birds out of the sky. And that thought lead to this sentence in Luis Alberto Urrea's The Hummingbird's Daughter; "Gusts of butterflies flew out of the bean fields as if the wind had been painted and had shattered into white chips".

What is the opposite of 'sublimation'? Is it possible to freeze gas suddenly, directly to its solid state?

At school we were taught that descriptive writing exercises the imagination and were duly sent out to find an object to bring back to the classroom and then write about it. I brought back the umbriferous flower of a common weed.

Cleave. A word that is its own antonym.[edit monday 17 August 2009: I learn from listening to Steven Fry's BBC Radio 4 programme Fry's English Delight that this would be called a contranym.]

The only party for me happened when I reached my seventh birthday.

This bad writing is akin to poor music: random notes, no rhythm, no melody, no beat . . .

What do I hear, see, taste, smell . . . what do I feel? try this exercise: descibe colours to a blind man; music to a deaf man; taste to a man who has lost his sense of smell

An amateur musician practices a piece of music until he makes no mistakes . . . then stops. A professional musician plays until he cannot make mistakes . . . then keeps playing.

To defend myself from those who may think I'm misogynist recast the preceding sentences completely or use the ugly he/she construction.

These are the gleanings from nearly five pages of my morning writing and now back to the quotidian round of living. I shall be in the bookstore today. Come by and ask me about a book or author I don't yet know. Choir practice this evening . . .

Goodnight

A day without music? Quite the contrary. Listened to Round the House CDs this morning and have rounded out the day playing my own music on the hammered dulcimer this evening. I'll read more of Urrea's The Hummingbird's Daughter before going to bed. I seem to spend a lot of time reading others' blogs; my own diminishes and I promise myself to come here each day. I won't always have a picture; and I may not have anything to say or I think I don't. An exercise I have not yet done is reviewing my memory cards. I make notes of odd memories that come to me in unguarded moments. Does a life have to make sense? I miss Zoë's physical presence and remember the times she would jump into my arms and lick my face. What will I dream tonight? Shall I remember any dreams? How shall I remember today? The music.

Joyful and Sad

What an eventful week-end. For the first time in too long a time I went to a music festival. The stay in England was too short and filled with friends I needed to see, and places of personal pilgrimage I needed to visit, to make time for either the Whitby folk festival or the Upton festival. My hunger to hear live music, other than that I try to make for myself, was satisfied by travelling over two-hundred miles to Edgewood, NM for the 7th Annual Wildlife West Music Festival. This is a delightful location just off Interstate 40 thirty or so miles east of Albuquerque.
I arrived in time to catch a local all female band Lady Fingers who played a relaxing eclectic set by no means all bluegrass. Quite a few local bands filled out the bill. Round the House from Tucson played traditional Irish tunes on the main stage at the amphitheatre. More bluegrass from The Badly Bent. And then the man who was the draw for me to attend this festival. A singer, songwriter and story-teller in the tradition of Woody Guthrie, Pete Seeger, Tom Paxton, Bob Dylan . . . ; multi-instrumentalist, teacher, father, soon to be grandfather, folklorist and all round generous man John McCutcheon.

Kathy stayed home to be with Zoë our Siberian husky who was very ill

This picture is of her in her prime when she was about four years old. She died Sunday whilst I was gone and today we made arrangements for her cremation.

The Quotidian Round

Why am I fond of Latinate locutions? I haven't written long enough, or simply enough. As long as I write something, somewhere, about anything at any time of day . . .
So what is this quotidian round, this day-to-day living which tends to wear me out? What are the essentials I have to take care of? Sleeping well, eating healthily, keeping clean, wearing clothes appropriate for the weather and wearing a good pair of comfortable shoes for the journey . . . sharp pencils, ink filled pens and clean paper, and reading which may spark ideas in my mind's eye . . . to be still.

I'm still here

"Procrastination . . . the thief of Time . . . " I'm not at home at the moment and of course as soon as I try write here all the ideas for themes, topics and trivia that I have not made note of are gone from my mind.

I have been browsing, and marking to follow, many blogs and I feel such an utter inchoate novice, if that isn't a tautology, with my little effort here which has no focus; and which I have left far too long. We are each the centre of the universe. I imagine myself as a signpost in a vast desert; the many arms of the signpost point to the horizon, to the sky, to my feet. Some of these blogs I follow publicly giving you the chance to explore them through the links in my profile . . .

Much time has been used playing country dance tunes on the dulcimer. Some time was rescued taking pictures of wildflowers; a project much mulled over for several years.

Any idiot can face a crisis.

It's this day-to-day living that wears you out. (Anton Chekov) Which is why I haven't been here lately to focus on what I am seeking. I have been dreaming. I have been bemoaning the heat. I have been watching gathering clouds each afternoon; wishing for more than a sprinkle; hoping we won't be deluged. I sleep, eat; stare at a computer screen wondering where the Muses hide . . . I talk to my sister on the 'phone; I raise my voice above the hum of fans, air-conditioner and humidifier to talk to Kathy across the room. I watch a little TV and finish reading A Plague of Doves; I continue dipping into Sailing Home; re-reading Blue Highways. I play a little music on the dulcimer and recorders; I listen to selected programmes on BBC Radio4 . . . I write very brief journal notes in the morning. I browse others' blogs. I receive a letter from a dear friend . . . he plans to visit this fall. I think of the things I am not going to mention here . . . I wait in hope of customers at the bookstore . . .

I read the Declaration of Independence once again and think of Thomas Paine sitting on my bookshelves . . . spent the Fourth in the mountains near Silver City, New Mexico . . .